I found this on another blog. Of course, I don't know this other person personally. It's a blog I found by lurking....and I'm ok with it. Anyway, it was inspiring. I was brought to tears by all the realness going on. It was a free ticket to be real, sharing the good with the bad, not pretending that life with children is one blissful moment after another....and I'm all for it.....here goes. I just might disable the comment section on this post.....I'm a wimp like that.
1. I have serious sleep issues. I don't do it much. Especially in the summer when I'm not working. I forced myself to go to sleep a few nights ago at 4am because I was afraid Tim would freak out seeing me awake when his alarm went off. Some days it makes me a bad mom when the wake-up call from Sophie and Noah is earlier than I'm ready for. I can function on 4 hours, no joke. But then it catches up to me.
2. I read blogs way too much. I check my friends' blogs way too often. Sometimes several times a day....I'll even go back to check on the comments. I check Jodi's blog every other day now because she has a live traffic feed....I'm afraid she'll judge me and call me a stalker if she knew how much I really frequent everyone's blog.
3. Sophie is challenging me these days. I think we skipped the terrible twos because the threes are kicking my ass. She is so inquisitive (i.e. she asks thousands of questions a day) and I am often struggling to find my patience. I breathe deeply......A LOT.
4. I struggle with the guilt of being a working mom on a daily basis. But then I also feel guilty for loving my career. I LOVE what I do and love that I have a career. It's taken me time to realize that maybe being the SAHM I've prayed to be isn't who I am. It was a tough realization.
5. The family vacation we took to the Sierras earlier this summer was a bit embellished. I think I said, "We really enjoyed ourselves once we figured out the area." Actually, it was my mini confession that prior to "figuring out the area," the trip was pure hell. The kids hated being in the car for too long, whined about everything we did, and our exploration of Calaveras Big Trees was spent forcing our kids to enjoy the fresh air and nature. The pictures I showed were definitely the best moments. They outshine the rest of the trip, but trust me, there were "pulling hair" moments too.
6. I have this love/hate relationship with where we live. Half the time I want to hightail it out of here as fast as possible because the cost of living is astronomical. The other half is in love with this place. I love the diversity, the weather, the culture, the beauty.....but then I whine about the prices and wonder what kind of home I can get in Ohio for 700k. It drives Tim nuts.
7. I am continuously working on how to be happy in the "here and now." This is where I am, accept it, embrace it, be happy. Some days I can't. See #6.
8. I buy a lot of my clothes at Target, yet I insist on designer handbags.
9. Our nanny does our laundry. Now that she's off for the summer I am hating life with piles of laundry staring at me endlessly. I'm more aware of what I wear during the day and am not afraid to recycle for the next day......or the next.
10. Some days I must remind myself that Tim and I are husband and wife, and not just co-parents to the little beings of our house. When days are busy, we often forget this.
I have a thousand more "real" facts about myself, but those can be saved for another day. It was fun writing this....truth be told, I wrote it a while ago but just never posted. I often save this kind of stuff for a few people, but what the heck! We don't judge.......right?